Under no circumstances should death be my sacrifice, but under any circumstances would it be my salvation. That’s honestly not a difficult thing to live with, until it becomes the only thing to live with.
If ever this life was, I note myself mentally unwilling, physically weakened and exhausted. All 5 senses falter. My torso feels night and day as though it barely contains a portal to some hellscape beyond reckon. Being serious about anti-Capitalism, I’ve no savings or retirement, no bank account or credit cards, no property or vehicles, or debts. Freedom is never having existed. Were I to claim all the world’s love, all its fame and all its fortune, none of it might ever compensate this lifetime gone without necessities of value and of purpose. Never was it worthwhile, never was it happy or healthy, and never was it home.
Our lifestyles negatively impact our environments, and the Eco-friendly industry is for-profit opportunism, both of these things can co-exist as true and real, for so long as most people entitle themselves to all the world’s modern comforts but none of the responsibility for it. I don’t need to share in any luxuries, entitlements or privileges, I”d rather be self-dependent. Who on Earth created no problems for themselves or for others by living and breathing to the contrary? What problem can’t be solved by some burden being shared? Valuing self-determination, I think/feel that the physical survival of anyone anywhere would be the concern of anybody and everybody else, but absolutely nobody’s esteem could or should be. We can’t mandate thoughts and feelings replicated by others enduring their own freedom. Nobody would care to have firefighters first ask you serious questions about your political record, your religious beliefs or your pop culture preferences, but everyone is casual about the huge swathes of suffering humanity they themselves pay no active mind to. Amusing myself rather than living beyond my means, every resource and opportunity I willfully declined in my lifetime was a resource and opportunity for somebody else, incapable of entertaining themselves or of living within their means.
The only rationalization for exorbitant pricing to the goods and services all around us, from life-saving to the inconsequential, is that some people expect applause for insisting say, a debt-free million total in holdings and assets is not enough for a worthwhile life. Universal Basic Income and raising minimum wages both justify pricing eggs at zillions of bucks, whereas capping maximum gains would prevent them from costing more than cents. We’d work less than we do now while our monies go further than they do now. The idea that society’s ills are complicated is a fabrication by ego, just as every complication in life from the private to the public comes by ego, conflating pride and comfort with survival while competing with other egos for the imagined right to influence and control others. If wealth or power or authority come from good intentions, then everyone we know in real life must all be horrendous people to lack any. If anybody anywhere holds more wealth than you, more power than you or more authority than you, they do not frankly need your support financially or psychologically. If you can fend for yourself in life without their excess, going without so much of what they have, why can they not go without what you have and fend for themselves?
We contrive justifications for tax breaks, tax credits, tax forgiveness, tax incentives and tax leniency, in part to incentivize private interests to build national pipelines for moving oil to resupply their tax havens and tax shelters. God forbid the same be done for transporting water. Not sure if getting paid to profiteer a company line is anymore benevolent than getting paid to inform a political narrative. With federal currencies we indulge fantasies to subsidize the living of the most self-serving power-mongers either way. Like there’s no homeless kids. How about a ten-year moratorium nationwide blocking all new construction projects whether residential or commercial. There’s enough already if we ban derelict buildings, and owning multiple homes. Rather than moving on, damage control restoring or repurposing existing structures. Instead, the norm involves solutions achieving nothing but the creation of further problems. Consider how the DoJ’s own stats show that civil asset forfeiture steals billions more yearly than do all the burglaries around the country committed by everyone without the need to cosplay superiority. The shared trait of all authoritarians, unironically though emphatically proud to defend against the supposed tyranny of anyone opposed to tyrannical bastards believing in a personal authority over life and death, whether by long-term orchestrations or the immediacy of a lethal force. To save lives.
The good political party either failed dramatically to stop all the many bad things done historically by the other party, or are complicit. What if every elected position was filled by a randomized lottery as done with jury duty? Would an anonymous process not be more democratic? Oh, but Joe Q Citizen is an idiot! We entertain governance because on some level we all agree most people are incapable of governing themselves logically or morally. Then shit bricks when that same majority continuously empower the absolute worst among us. I’d imagine that were patriots not abject hypocrites, they would want the best for their fellow citizens, in that if no chain can be stronger than its weakest link then every single link to the human chain warrants education and healthcare so they’ve something to give back to the whole. But then, I’ve yet to see or hear in all my years and travels of any form of community or collective which wasn’t a guise for codependency. Gated communities physical or metaphysical are purposed exclusively with blocking out the mass of reality. When we insist that news media, schools and online social networks only allow us to meet with what we are already familiar or comfortable with, the only thing enriched is ego.
If the most heroic people across time and space weren’t about praying to angel investors to save their own skins, the world at large has no cause to sacrifice for my esteem, my pride or my comfort. The worst person deserves a meal before I get fed. People everywhere can think and feel about me however they want, they can choose for themselves what I do or do not mean to them personally and I go unbothered, because I get that were the universe to service my wants, then every trust would be coerced and unnatural and thus, self-defeating. I try hard to never service the esteem of any person, place or thing unless a life’s physical survival is objectively at stake, but refuse to indulge any fantasies and virtually everyone is guaranteed to make the decision for you. Doubting preferred marketing is sacrilege! If we’ve nothing to like and subscribe to, are we indeed a useless peoples, or rather are we merely unencumbered by thoughts and feelings the universe beyond has never maintained time or space for, yet somehow gotten along dandy without? If the love generated to or from your favorite icons and institutions is so important, how can someone as lowly as myself ever have survived without?
There is no glory to salvation, and that’s what makes it the only beautiful thing. There is not one iota of beauty or glory to enduring this society. Only the hint of beauty rests in a life’s ending, only the hint of glory rests in why it begins, all the space and all the time between filled by sacrifice and all of it forgotten and all of it gone the only salvation from these mobs of disingenuous and mobs of listless.